Rant

Okay, I have to say something and I shouldn't give a disclaimer of I know below sounds bad, but this is just what's going on. I am not looking for help but just want to type about what's been going on. Here it goes.

My name is Christine. I am a good person and try to help out others with what ever they need. I love to give gifts (that's my love language). I am usually one of the first ones at work and one of the last ones to leave. I have a full time job plus another one. I work with children all day in two classrooms and then work the after school program until at least 5 pm but maybe sometimes till 5:45 or 6. I have debt. I know that it's my fault and my purchases that have made me have debt. I know that I won't come with a dowry for my future husband, but will come with debt into the relationship. I work so much and still have trouble paying my bills this summer. I have put in applications for a summer job and haven't been buying things and have been on a budget. It's not like I don't have food on the table or gas money, but money has been tight with paying of my bills. I honestly feel like I am doing the best that I can. I think before I purchase anything and have made lunches instead of going out to eat. I have no idea why I need to say the things that I am doing as some sort of reasoning to why: The bottom line is that just b/c I am a good person and work my butt off, sometimes you can only do what you can do. Sometimes you have to give control over to God and allow Him to fully take over in your life.