Strength

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord, wait upon the Lord, we will wait upon the Lord.

Still do not know anything about my job and don't know when we will find out which para pro will be asked to go to another school. God has SO surrounded me the last couple of days. This morning while in the car driving to work, I just prayed for God to surround Himself around me and for me to see/feel Him throughout the day. I so did. I did in ways that a friend had to remind me of something that happened today and look at it as a blessing.

I am not good at waiting. I am not good at being patience. The Lord knows this. He SO knows this. I was talking with my wonderful friend Jackie after church yesterday and one thing that I said about not knowing if I had a job at LRE was, am I SO stuck in sin that God needs to use this to show me it? Am I so not giving up control and not just knowing, but believing and acting as though God has my best interest at heart? That when I don't feel him or I have to be patient, that is a chance to be reminded that God is my Abba.

I put my prayer request on my church's website. It's like Facebook without all the bad things that come along with it. A wonderful mother of a family that I love posted the best thing for me!! She had two children who had gone through Little River and I remember her daughter's class like it was yesterday. She posted that LRE wouldn't be the same without me and that she thinks of me when she remembers the school.

I am so tired after a very long day. I am not going to type that much more, but I wanted to post something about today. One blessing is that the para pros were told that they would be working an extra half an hour without any more pay. We were given afternoon duty, which is usually when I begin ASP. But, the asst. principal asked if anyone would like to switch to a morning duty and after no one said anything, I asked or said that I would be willing to come in early. That means that my ASP time would not be changed and I could have more hours in it. It was a blessing b/c I usually don't speak up and that I was able to do it.

My first day of school with 23/22 kids making 45 kids all together was lovely and tiring. I was moving around all day long, and towards the end of the day was able to really take a look at my kids and get to know some of them a little. One of my new friends Melvin, started crying in line b/c " I want to bring my lunch from home! I want my MOOOOMMMMY" He had really big alligator tears and I just wanted to somehow take a lunchbox from out of a hat and give it to me. I coaxed him into the lunchroom and told him that he should tell his Mom that he wanted to bring his lunch.

One of the best parts of the first day is to see my kids from years before. They are taller and are walking around as first and second graders. They give you a hug. They scream your name from across the room.

Well, I am off to bed now. Another day of patience.

Oh Lord, I am asking to feel your presence throughout the day tomorrow. I pray that I will know that you are right beside me, holding my hand and knowing that I so need to hear/see you. I pray that I don't allow my emotions to get the best of me and that the words that come out of my mouth are worthy of you hearing them. I love you Lord and I go to sleep tonight knowing that you are there right with me.
Amen.