Flight or Fight

This week my friend Kacee and I decided to try out a class a day at Gold's Gym since we have off for February Break. I tried Body Step, Zumba, did Spinning again, and then today came Pilates. Who wouldn't like to stretch and do easy movements? I found out quickly that person is Me! For some reason my anxiety kicked in and I felt dizzy and just didn't like it. So, now I know that isn't for me.

This week I also have learned what my real flight or fight reaction is. Yes, I have had anxiety for years. Yes, there are instances/times that were overwhelming. Yes, I have had therapy and know what to do to not bring one on or take care when I am feeling overwhelmed. Well, the other day my body just took over. I have been having nosebleeds for quite a while. Enough that it was getting in the way of work, I would be out of the room for 10-15 minutes trying to get it to stop. I told my doctor at my last checkup of what had been going on and she said to try Vaseline in my nose and to see if it would just stop on my own. Okay, it didn't. Since my mother has the rare blood disorder and every doctor wonders if Jenny or I have it, my doctor Monday told me to go to an ENT to see what was going on in my nose. I took my Mom with me b/c it something needed to be one, I wanted someone to be there. So, the doctor looked in my nose and found that I did not have any of what my mother has, but did have something that needed to take care of. I decided to have it cauterized. Both nostrils got cotton balls in it that helped numb my nose. I then got the worst shot to numb it all. The doctor said that it was the worst of everything. He was LYING!! He started to use the electrical waves to cauterize and......I yelled out the worst words you can to anyone. I felt waves go through my nose and it hurt so bad that I screamed out...."F*CK YOU to this new doctor that I just had met. I believe a SHIT!!! was also screamed out. He had to use the machine once more to get everything straightened out and now I am better. So, I believe that if I were to be in a dark alley and I creepy guy came up to me...I would indeed scream and call out for HELP!!!