Learning

What have a learned from doing the Biggest Loser?

I remember the first workout and it being so hard. CeCe had us doing things 50-100 times the other night and holding a plank for more than 20 seconds. She reminded us that we were only able to hold the plank for a couple of seconds and could only do sets of 10s.

I can do push ups. We had to wear the amount of weight we have lost and do some exercise. They had only 4 backpacks of weights, so we cheered others on, others that have lost more than 30-40 pounds put on these backpacks. It was my turn to wear the ten pound backpack and it was heavy, but REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE. We had to do 5o jumping jacks, 50 squats, and 50 push ups. I was already tired from working out so when it came my time I was a little tired. I honestly didn't think 10 pounds would be that much difference, but it IS!!!

That I can finish something. Remember when I wanted to become a missionary? When I wanted to learn Portuguese? When....... There has been a lot of When I finish this......then I will get what I have been wanting. I have learned that The Biggest Loser is only a beginning. It's a stepping stone. Being/Becoming healthy is a day in and day out thing to do. It's a constant thing of yes and No's. Yes I will go workout. No, I won't eat that dessert, or I will choose something good to eat when I go out.

I feel healthier. I can go up the stairs at work and not have to stop or feel out of breathe at the top. I can keep up with my kids when they play outside.

The new wardrobe has been nice also. My friend Friday told me that I should be wearing more form fitting shirts b/c they look nicer. You tell that to a once overweight girl that always had the tent sized shirt hoping that her muffin top won't poke out. The new wardrobe consists of clothes at the back of the closet and from the top of the closet that I was never able to wear. Or shirts that I have worn and were too big that now fit just right.

I have also been reminded that you should always have people on your team. Your family and God Given Family that will help you. I have learned that it's okay to ask for help. From living a life where I constantly want to fix things and help others, taking the time to ask for help is a nice new thing that I have been encountering. I am so thankful for my friends that I can call with a prayer request and they will either calm me down or yell at me and bring the words that I need to so hear.

I am okay being alone. Ask Jenny how many times I have been to Starbucks this year and you will know that I am okay with being alone. Yes, it would be nice to have someone, but I am more comfortable going to work out in a class that I don't know anyone, go to the movies alone, or just sit in Starbucks and have conversations with God.

I think that The Biggest Loser has shown me, but also this year has been a wide opening surrendering of my life over to God. My tendency to control everything and to help in so many ways hasn't come to life like this year. I have had many things taken away and I have had to lean on God more than any other time in my life. I thought that my time in Guatemala with the Lord and a parasite would be the last time that I would need to be shown that HE is the one in control of my life. Daily reminders through work, family sickness, car troubles, and money troubles have brought me back to my knees in front of the Lord.

CeCe was saying one night that some of us don't have "it" yet. Some people it caught on at the beginning, some in the middle, and some have got on to "it" right at the end. At times I have questioned myself whether or not I will keep up with my new healthy living. I know now that yes, I will have cheat days, but the way I feel after a hard workout, how I feel when I can wear something out and not feel judged on the way I look, and how I have leaned onto God so much that I know that I will be good/just fine with keeping this all up.

Jenny asked me today if I was going to keep my blog up. I get in these moods to type and not type. I am hoping that this Summer will not only bring great one on one time with the Lord, but also time to write.

Thank you for listening.