Pride

I am proud of myself. I haven't had a panic attack or any feelings like that in I don't know how when. The other day was hard at work. I was surprised that I didn't cry, heavy breathe, or have to excuse myself to have my breakdown not in front of anyone else. I slept fine that night and in the morning I came in ready for the day without any worry. I was really afraid/wondering if my one child was going to remember the day before. My friend/coworker said the best thing. She said that some children don't hold grudges. Yesterday was yesterday and today is today. How wonderful b/c that is how I am too!! You can't hold grudges or act like they should be punished every other day for their actions. Even today, I am being honest here, I did get teary-eyed, tried to stop and then stepped out of the room. I went into the bathroom and breathed in and out for some time. The years stopped and my hear beat wasn't any faster.
Another wonderful thing happened. Tonight we have curriculum night. I never come back when the parents come in the evening to hear about the whole year. But, before leaving, I wanted to clean the desks and straighten up around the 2 rooms. I told this to my one teacher and she said, NO, Today is your mental health Thursday and I will be straightening up. How wonderful to take the pressure off of me and to take affect that today is the day that I leave at 2:30 instead of staying until 6. I have been reading The 4:8 Principle and it's been focusing on your own mind and thought process. Before I wouldn't have thought this to be true, but now I know that it is from experience.

You can control your thoughts, you can strengthen your emotional life.