Below 200!

Oh, how I don't know the last time I was below 200. I think my license even says 200. It used to say 154, my goal weight that has been since I don't know when. How is it that you can look back at pictures from the past and think that you weren't big at all then, when at the time you thought that you were the biggest that you have ever been? I think that's what it's like in past relationships, you only see the sweetness instead of the misery. And so it's Weds and I'm nervous about this weeks weigh in. I want to say that I haven't weighed myself, but that would be a lie. I've been good with my water intake and have been going to the gym. But, I think I am sabotaging myself by thinking that I am going to gain.